I wish i were a child again.

A way to pull through a day is to hold on,hold on.hold on..
As you gorw older,you tend to see someone's face as a facade to their true-self.

Sunday, October 16, 2011
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Sometimes i gets really tired. Things i told you i dont like yet you still do. I hated being insecure and everything like how im feeling now.. Why am i feeling like when you needs me then you wants me? When i wasn't needed, your friends were much more important? Daniel, lemme tell you, I'm changing, i got influence by you, I'll make more friends, go out w' friends more often than going out w' you, so i wouldn't always give you attitude and all kinds of shit and wont not let you go out w' your friends again, so that i wouldn't will doubt you. When I've changed, don't blame me cos i feel tired living just w' you, family, cousins, a few bestfriend.. I'm still young, why do i deserve sucha lil' amount of friends and always stick w' just a few people in my life? I guess I'll get my career and do things that i want.. I'm changing.. So that you wouldnt kept telling me that if being w' you were so unhappy, i can dont be w' you what.. i dont wanna hear all this kinda shits again, perhaps i can say i am moving on..

I'M GONNA CHANGE..

Labels: I'm changing, moving on.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011
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Hey you.

Hi i got so much things to rant.

Family-
I don't know what's wring w' my mum, shall stop talking about her, its just wasting of my time. I also dislike my sis. Why's my dad and brother the best, how i wish i can marry my dad, thats all or either my brother. And I don't understand why our ATM card can't be withdrawlled, and have to owe my bf, i think he fucking mind man please, look at his face, it can be seen through, if you mind then tell me then, We won't owe you, its not as if like we won't return you back right? We no money to return you back?? Just that all of our card can't be withdrawl, else we wouldn't wanna owe you ;) Well, some people were just money minded kind, yes? :)

Relationship-
Well i dont know anything, I mean i know, but look whatever i wanna say, people would come to me and question me, sickening. I still didn't get over of what i think, you can kept denying and denying but till when? Or maybe he really has something that he may be hiding from me? He tell me that he thinks i am the one doing and hiding things behind him, haha leh. Sub me, yes? no?

Friends-
oO bitches.

Labels: Im done.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011
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I just fucking hate my mum, i dont know why is she so against me everyday. i really hate her so much, i wished i had just a single parent without my mum. if she really dislike me so much, she can just disown me, why i've become today its all because the way my mum is treating me so badly, its not that i purposely wanna react this way all these days. I hate her, i wish i could afford to buy my own house and i can disown my mum. She's a slut i swear, i thinks she's having affair outside which she feels guitly, if she's against me ever again. i'll leak everythingto my dad. I curse my mum that she'll get raped by that guy, sell my mums body away, i feel so proud that im unlike her. I wants my mum to die. I've had enough of my mum, its time for her to die and get to hell. I wish my dad is also having affair outside yet dont have a mum like my mum, pls change a mum for me.. This mum is despicable, she's a bitch, I've alr grown up yet she still hits me, i did beat her back since she doesn't respect me oo then why should i? haha dont be funny.

I WANT MY MUM TO DIE ;)

Saturday, October 08, 2011
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Sighs, life.

Wtf am i thinking about, i mean again? Really hate it, I've been going through this kinda feelings thoroughly over and over again, eek so bitchy. I've got sucha doubtful mind, how great? : Because of whatever I'm thinking, it'll fucking gonna make my day. Little things can make me feel unhappy now a days, I'm so unsure about what's going on. Perhaps whatever I've been doubting might has already happened just that i don't know at all, sure there'll be 'some' people do hide things from me or maybe i got fooled. When I'm quiet, just beware of what you do and how you talk to me, I'll hurt you, for sure. I'm not satisfied, i dont wanna emphasize what is it, but hope that certain person will realise ;) I can be very nice despite how you treat me or talk to me, but if you talk to me in a way i dislike, sorry huh i'm much more better talking rudely to you. I'm not a nice girl if you were to do things or talk to me in a way i dislike, guess you'll suck your thumb. I'm getting to dread waking up everyday, and also sleeping. Waking up, I would think alot, while when I'm sleeping i dreamt of those crazy scene then waking up feeling empty, cb. If i wanna be better than anyone, i can be. Omg and i"m already on my holiday, wonder what am i gonna do. Thats all i guess, so much things to say yet i cant really explain here.. i mean my feelings either,i still feel all the same all the time which make me feel horendous, fucking bitch.. I'm also a horendous person kk -.- I hate those people whom do things and doesn't admit & also, say this do that lemme tell you i hate you this kinda people. Or maybe what i was thinking has really happened hor, just that you didn't wanna admit and tell me..

I'm going, feeling terrible.
There's so much I've felt I should say but even if your heart would listen, i doubt i could say cos you'll never want to admit and never telling me the truth and you'll never get to feel how i feel.

Labels: Fuck life.

Thursday, October 06, 2011
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I was so bored yet has also got the urge to blog.

Monday, October 03, 2011
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MADELEINE & DANIEL

MADELEINE...

[US]

Hi, hadn't been updating my bloggy thats why it seems dead. Many things happened recently, i must face everything alone, but i guess I've overcome.. My heart was thinking so much, i kept telling myself not to. Last night, waking up thinking so much, like i felt all alone and thinking about everything thats happening. People wouldn't will or gonna understand me. Relationship? I guess we're alright? I know I shouldn't be bothered too much, but sometimes i over think which wasn't what i wanted. Well,finish blogging then.. Don't talk to me when im in sucha horendous mood, i'll kill you. and im hating a girl, bitch. I'm gonna dance dance & dance,im gonna make my days busier so that i wouldnt think alot huh. Were you there.. I hate treating people nicely else they'll take advantage of it, sick. No matter what, I love US alot though we're not as close as we were. this is how relationship goes, being together for long, it'll always end up this way, how great. what am i not satisfied now? I've got everything i got and everything I want. I don't like people to spend on me, waste of money. Something im excited about was my cousin is coming back, he should see how much things had actually change. I've alr lost 1 cousin, yo how great? ;) You got a immature mindset, pls be more kind. And dont scold me guai lan or what seriously, im just protecting myself dumb, unlike you. At least i got this ability and i know my mouth is full sarcasm. Omg my dior foundation, you bitch. Heartfelt love. oO i miss my bestfriend, miss carrie. I'm always gossiping w' her, we've got few of same kind, violent is one. My boyfriend, I love you. I didn't ask for much but how i really hope is we'll get back close like how we used to be, but i think its impossible, nah its ok... i've never met someone great like you, someone who can tolerate me throughout everything despite my attitude so bitchy. Thanks for always being there for me when i needed you the most, i appreciate. I really doesn't know how to express, but to use my words to thankyou. Suddenly missing you so much. We grow up together within a part of our life, it'll never be forgotten.

Splendid thoughts,everything happens for a reason.

Labels: Someone like you/.

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