Hi,I'm moody now which it always happens,(paranoid!) There're so much things that are bothering me badly. I had a bad dream yesterday,its the scariest nightmare. It has been a long time since i'm having a nightmare. This year is seriously a screwed up year for me,my life kinda went upside down,sometimes life is really cruel. I got no motivations to study,i've even got the intention to quit school. I dont know what am i thinking,as i know i'm just gonna ruin my future. I'm not helping myself to get over this intention,yet i kept dreading. I'm gonna drop D&T soon,just a letter from my parents to teacher, I'll drop. Well,i was too much,i felt guilty,i've always been asking my parents for a big amount of money and they'll just give me,and i spent it all without using my brain. (Obnoxious) I want a great change in my life,though i'm already satisfied w' most all the things i had in my life. Love? Alright i guess my love life was kind fine? Just that i kept thinking about those past things which makes me think so much & i got moody and moody. I seriously dont wish to go on like this,i must get over it so i wont be so depressed all the time. I'm superb happy now as my little cousin is staying over at my place today,and me and her has got eeyor :P This my life,its simple pleasant. Anddd yes,i also know that people would leave my life, i just got a 'i dont give a fuck' attitude. Love me or leave me,its so simple and i know it'll be fine as without some people in my life,its better and of course life goes on :)! There're sometimes,somethings that makes me so upset about,disappointed. I just hope the one i love wouldn't doubt my love. I dont like people to doubt me,please know how it feels being doubted when you're really telling the fucking truth. I dislike someone,that person kept liking & liking status,like all?? wtf are you trying to get some attention? I hate your actions. :/ Damn why am i being to bad to even dislike someone just like this? Its really obnoxious like how i think. I seems so unhappy w' so much things, andd right jealousy kills.

'Its funny how people who know the least about you always have the most to say'.

Is jealousy much more hurtful than being hurt?