Hi,I'm moody now which it always happens,(paranoid!) There're so much things that are bothering me badly. I had a bad dream yesterday,its the scariest nightmare. It has been a long time since i'm having a nightmare. This year is seriously a screwed up year for me,my life kinda went upside down,sometimes life is really cruel. I got no motivations to study,i've even got the intention to quit school. I dont know what am i thinking,as i know i'm just gonna ruin my future. I'm not helping myself to get over this intention,yet i kept dreading. I'm gonna drop D&T soon,just a letter from my parents to teacher, I'll drop. Well,i was too much,i felt guilty,i've always been asking my parents for a big amount of money and they'll just give me,and i spent it all without using my brain. (Obnoxious) I want a great change in my life,though i'm already satisfied w' most all the things i had in my life. Love? Alright i guess my love life was kind fine? Just that i kept thinking about those past things which makes me think so much & i got moody and moody. I seriously dont wish to go on like this,i must get over it so i wont be so depressed all the time. I'm superb happy now as my little cousin is staying over at my place today,and me and her has got eeyor :P This my life,its simple pleasant. Anddd yes,i also know that people would leave my life, i just got a 'i dont give a fuck' attitude. Love me or leave me,its so simple and i know it'll be fine as without some people in my life,its better and of course life goes on :)! There're sometimes,somethings that makes me so upset about,disappointed. I just hope the one i love wouldn't doubt my love. I dont like people to doubt me,please know how it feels being doubted when you're really telling the fucking truth. I dislike someone,that person kept liking & liking status,like all?? wtf are you trying to get some attention? I hate your actions. :/ Damn why am i being to bad to even dislike someone just like this? Its really obnoxious like how i think. I seems so unhappy w' so much things, andd right jealousy kills.

'Its funny how people who know the least about you always have the most to say'.

Is jealousy much more hurtful than being hurt?

Alright we didn't quarrel yesterday. Like finally i've told you whatever i've been longing to tell you. Mind at ease,finally. Doesn't mean we quarrel or argue,means im gonna leave you,its not like how you think. No matter how big blow our quarrel is,my love will nvr gonna change for you,i hope you understand. I miss you,i'm always here for you,dont worry. I hope this almost 9th month time,i didn't gave you much worries & problems. I hope being w' me is a happiness. But if you think you're better off w/o me,all it means. I'm just really happy being w' you,though some of our times & days screw up,but i'm still happy than happy. I know when i got upset or angry,i gave you attitude,i yell at you.. I know you cant stand me,& i know there'll be a day you would be tired of bearing my attitude. I can't wait for you to book out :) I can't wait to go out w' you,watch movie & have our popeye which we've been craving since last month. Anddddd i'm really so sorry that i always gives you attitude & even yell at you when you're in no wrong andd that i vent anger on you. I hope you understand i really couldn't control my emotions.Andd i make you angry sometimes or even upset and spoiled your day. Butttt i'm really thankful that i've got you for always being by my side for me,sincerely much appreciated. Nothings gonna change my love for you. Happy 9th Month Anniversary in advance. Though i hardly would tell you 'i love you',but i really do. Please be happy,its all i'm asking for. When i see you laugh & smile so much,it makes me feels more happier than you. Making your love ones laugh & smile,its a happiness. :) See you soon,i'm done blogging,off/.

May we last long,Madeleine & Daniel.